Felt Choice

Choices, choices, choices. Should we be thankful that we have them? Should they torture the way we decide to proceed? In the end, we might believe that it doesn’t even matter, sometimes, I’m not so sure. We want the world to be perfect; we try hard to accomplish what we dream for. You need to understand that life is no fairy tale; life is not rainbows and butterflies. You need to take each step at a time.

Air we breathe refreshes out thoughts, we take it for granted. Set your goals, cherish each moment, work for what you want, choices will always be there. North, south; hot, cold, can’t you understand that you are building your end?

Feelings, these feelings are what make us continue making our choices. Today, tomorrow and forever, choices will allow us to be free; they will surround our heart to understand what makes no sense. This, makes no sense at all.

Understand

Understand

The sun is coming up, or maybe down, I can’t really tell when I’m lying upside down. I used to look in one direction, and I didn’t even try to change that. Until one day, I felt my heart running, running this race. The type of race that nobody wins, nobody loses, a race that makes you breathe fast, fly when your feet are still on the ground. I saw something shinning, which made me turn around, made me open my eyes. Everything inside was laughing.I can’t remember if that was a nervous laugh. I can’t remember if I was smiling at all.

The world has a symphony, ready for you to hear. Close your eyes, and open your senses, to what life has just given you. Life. Enjoy what they can’t, listen to what you have never heard, see what you haven’t stopped and observe. Feel the power that surrounds your smile. Amazing. Time is irrelevant with this feeling. This feeling is irrelevant without time. Stay here and understand what I’m trying to explain. This is what I’ve been waiting for my whole life. And the best part of it all… it's that this is just our beginning.

Things that come...

In this story it is You who is the main character.

The bell rings you run out of school like always. But this time you are running with your white Nike running shoes Mom just bought for you. We all know she is going to be so upset because the "new shoes" like she calls them, even though it has been one week since you first used them, are full of mud. "Oops", you think, "Nothing we can do". While waiting for Mom to pick you up you see John and you see Kelly as well and wave them good-bye. "Hey! What are you doing here?" You say to that tall handsome man. You notice something is wrong with the way his eyes are looking at you, the way he looks at you is never going to be the same. "Kiddo we need to talk." You start to wonder if everything is ok. "Sure Daddy, are you OK?" His eyes fill up with tears and you notice that he is not as strong as the time he lift you up on the family cottage and threw you into the lake.

The trees were green mixed up with yellow and orange. Dad was laughing so much to see that you were trying to grab the small fish with your net. Your bathing suit was bright red, you chose it yourself. Mom was smiling and preparing the BBQ. You ran with Mom gave her a kiss she picked you up and whispered, I love you. You giggled and ran back to Dad, he picked you up and threw you to the lake, you laughed and swam back to where Dad was.
"No kiddo, I'm not OK" A few drops fell from his weak eyes. You walked back home in a strong silence, you were not able to talk, though you did not know what was going on, you knew your life was about to change. When you got home your Grandmother was there, your uncle was there too. You ran upstairs to your parents room to ask Mom what was going on. You opened the door, you could smell her perfume, the one she usually wears. The light in the washroom was on. You ran towards the washroom opened the door... But nobody was there. You looked for her in the walk-in closet, but the only thing left of her was her perfume. Suddenly the door opens and you ask without looking, "Mom..." Dad interrupts you and says, "Kiddo, this is what we need to talk about." Your eyes filled up with tears your eyes were starting to get blurry and you didn't understand what was going on with your body it was shaking, and you couldn't make it stop. "Kiddo, Mommy had an accident. And she went to heaven." You feel your whole body numb, you fell to the floor unable to react.
The days pass, and you are unable to remember since everything happened so fast. Dark. Was all you could remember. People wearing sun glasses, skirts, shirts, and you couldn't wear your white Nike running shoes, you had to wear your dress black shoes. Your white Nike running shoes were still at home right were you left them full of mud. And Mom will never be there again to be upset about them being dirty.
What you do remember is when you were all gathered aroung the coffin at the cementery, the priest was speaking words you barely were listening to and flowers were thrown at the coffin. This was the worst feeling you are unable to understand. The coffin was being lowered to the ground. You looked around, your dad was not your dad anymore, you couldn't understand why he was crying. He seems even younger when he cries. You suddenly realized you have never seen him cry. The coffin started to go lower and lower until it was on the ground. A feeling you can't explain was inside you, it was suddenly ripped out of you. It was like if your soul has just being sucked out of you. You can't belive it's your Mom who is in the box, who will no longer, move, talk, smile, laugh, or whisper I love you. You move forward to stare at the coffin in which your Mom is in, dirt starts to cover the coffin. You start crying, it seems unstoppable, you soul is being broken apart by the separation you are just experiencing. You wish it was all a dream. But it strikes you, this is not a dream, the separation has been definite the coffin is totally covered, and you realize, this is the last time you'll be so close to your Mother.
Author's Note:
What I believe is that cremation would be better, it is less painfull, the separation is not as hard as when you see the coffin going down. I hope you enojoy my writtings and find that in all of them you learn something new. Thanks for reading, Nora Oooh and Comments are more than welcome!!

Lesson for all of us:

Lesson for all of us:

I’ve been working on a Call Centre. Well, it is fun sometimes let me tell you people do appreciate what you do (NOT!). Example:
“Hi thank you for calling….. my name is Nora, How can I help you today?” I answer. On the other line an upset customer. “Ha, you think you can help me? I’ve been for more than ten minutes on the fu***** line waiting for somebody to answer this stupid phone.” Well my shift starts at 11:00 AM, I know it is not that early but ooh well it’s 5:00 PM now, I’ve been talking to customers all day long, and you thought 10 minutes was a lot to wait? “I’m sorry about that Ma’am (I can barely hear the other person on the line), but I would be glad to help you today, what can I do for you?” Frustration keeps on growing on the other side. You know how when you are in a hurry and need to get money out of the drive thur bank machine and some stupid person in front of you parked like 10 meters away from the machine? They don’t know how to use it, Hmm it’s not even new technology why the hell aren’t you able to park properly, click on a few buttons, get your cash and drive away? Well its not only one car in front of you but there’s other 5 cars infront.. All with the same big brain. Well as your frustration grows with those people, that’s how it was growing with the customer on the other line.
Well, I’m doing my best to be polite, courteous, smiling even though nobody is looking and trying to solve the issue here. Well that doesn’t seem to matter. The customer on the line decides to scream, “Hey give me a break you know I only have two ears and two thousand customers to server and you are still determined to make me go deaf?” I wish I could say that one day, that would give me a big invitation to walk out the door… with no job.
“Yes Ma’am I would be glad to help you, we need to have the proof of purchase.” I couldn’t hear before, well now I hear a low pitch angry voice. “First of all, I am a Man, second of all it’s been more than a year since I bought that, why would I need my fu***** receipt?” Well first of all, because somebody asked you to when you did the purchase, second of all because somebody explained to you that it was necessary for any transaction and third of all because I’m fu***** telling you. HA HA HA that would be nice to say. Well, after feeling just a little embarrassed that I confused man with a woman, I apologized endlessly.
One way or another the issue is resolved because I was trying my best, even though my day hasn’t been good, because either I had a fight with somebody or because I’m just simply feeling that way. I’m still polite. People, whenever you call customer service even though you do not agree with the way they work, understand, we are all humans and deserve a little bit of respect. A little bit of your time with patience and lastly we deserve a nice day just like you expect to have your day after you hung up.
Have a nice day all of you! ☺

Back to Where I Came From

I'm not so sure why or how did everything happen. I'm back in Mexico now. It was a difficult choice. One of the best experiences I’ve had in my life was in Canada. I experienced so many things. For instance a growth of myself and I don’t mean physically. My view of life changed completely, on how life should or shouldn’t be lived. I was living with a family, in which my prime responsibility was two girls. (This two girls are not the ones from my other writings) Coming from Mexico, in which the only care I had to give, was to myself and I wasn’t responsible for anybody’s meal, homework, showers, school and many things, my sense of responsibility and patience grew, believe me. I faced many challenges in where you can’t quit and you can’t just give up. You have to face the challenge and smile and be proud that you are facing a challenge and be sure of yourself that you will be able to come over it. That’s what being in Canada showed me. These girls started being as my job, then slowly, emotion comes in the way. And when emotions are involved anywhere, situations change. I stopped being Nora the Nanny I started being Auntie Nori. What an amazing feeling. I can’t lie and tell you that every day was amazing, because there were some times in which I wanted to hold them by the neck and scream EAT YOUR BREAKFAST WE’RE GONNA BE LATE! Or the time in which the little one came to me and told me that I was like her mom, or the time that the older one came to me, hugged and cried because it would be the last hug before I had to say Good Bye.

HEY EVERYBODY

Hey guys, my story: "Don't stop" has finally been added a few more parragraphs. Don't forget to drop by again. Soon I'll post more of it.

Have an excellent day!.

Nora

Please Read this!!

Hey everybody guess what? In three days it’s my birthday!
December 24.
Well it almost my birthday, in just a few hours more and well, everybody is celebrating something and I’m wondering if they remember what they are celebrating. But when I tried knocking on several doors, nobody answered. Or people just closed the door in my face, because I wasn’t dressed enough, or because I had no gifts for them. Hmm this is a little bit weird.
Since everybody seemed to be having too much fun I decided to slowly enter a very big house, nice lights around the roof, all decorated, and full of candy canes in the sidewalk. In the inside, the first thing I saw and came to my attention was this pine tree full of lights and decorations. While I sat there on the corner I was trying to understand what was going on, I couldn’t understand why nobody was happy to see me.
12:00 a.m. Woo Hoo! MY BIRTHDAY is HERE!! Everybody is shaking hands, hugging and kissing. But when I tried reaching out to anybody, nobody reached back to me. Why are people forgetting that this is my birthday? Then a fat guy dressed in red came in, and he looked drunk, what’s all this HO HO HO about? He had a big bag full of gifts. Well, at least a gift will make me a bit happy. But the gifts where all gone and my hands were empty, not only my hands but my heart was empty too.
That’s when I decided to make a party of my own; I invite everybody and invite them to realize that this celebration is more than just HO HO HO and more than just gifts. Is about somebody that died for all of you. And that somebody is me, Jesus Christ.

Things that come from the heart

Buzz, buzz. The door opened. I went to the elevator and clicked on the button. 4th floor as usual. I could hear footsteps along the left side from the elevator, where I was heading, and then I realized it was my own. Knock, knock, knock. “Nora, Nora, Nora! Nora’s here Mama!” The door opened and Serena came flying to give me a hug and say hi.
Today, I found the invitation of Serena’s birthday party on the fridge along with the Thank you card for assisting. So right now, I was thinking about this day. One of the days that it was fun for me going to their house.
“Hi Nora! Come in.” I came in and Sophia came running behind Serena, as usual Sophia following Serena around, wherever she went Sophia went after her. I sat down on what was the family room. The family room was actually pretty spacious, on my left the T.V., the couch was behind me which was kind of weird since it was a different angle to watch the T.V. to my right I saw Serena’s and Sophia’s toys. In front of me I could see the window that wasn’t anything special all you could see was some cars parked and the road with some green trees.
When I sat down I started tickling Serena and she laughed so much. Then Sophia came to join the fun. When their mom left, we played on Cinderella on the DVD. You have all watched Cinderella from Disney.
Then I saw Serena running around the whole room, searching for something. Throwing her toys here, there, moving everything. “Hey whatcha looking for sweetie?” I asked. Then she said almost like a grown up, “I need my wand, I need my wand because I am the fairy!” Then on the background I could hear the song starting, “Salagadoola mechicka boola bibbidi-bobbidi-boo.” Then since Serena was worried that she was not going to be the fairy without her wand I had to invent her a wand, so I found what looked like a stick from her toys and that made her happy. She started dancing around and singing and closing her eyes and moving in circles. All I could do was laugh; it was so adorable watching her be the fairy godmother. Then she pretended to make the horses appear and the carriage out of a pumpkin. Time after, when the prince and Cinderella started dancing she told me that she wanted to dance with me. So she closed her eyes lightly and stuck her nose up in the air and pretended to be Cinderella and dancing at the ball.
And now she is a princess and she will dance forever in the kingdom of heaven.