This is not a writing, neither a story, nor a feeling. Tuesday morning my brother, who is visting me, a friend and I went off to Hunstville, Ontario for the day. We stayed overnight on a cheap hotel and left Wednesday.
Rewind a little bit, every Tuesday I babysit for two little girls three year old and one year old. Their mom (single) goes to French Class on Tuesday evenings, therefore I go and babysit for the girls. Monday morning I call this woman, I had no answer so left a message. Monday evening she calls me back and I ask her, "Hey how are you doing?" In her regular tone of voice she answers me , "I'm ok." Then I ask her, "Would you mind if this Tuesday you get somebody else to babysit for your girls, because I'm going up north for two days." Then she answers me, "Yeah that is ok, no worries, really." Then she asks me, "But are we still on for Thursday morning?" Thursday she had a scheduled Court. She is divorcing her husband and they are fighting custody. (At least they were) I assured her that I was going to pick her up, take her to court, and then bring the girls to my place. After she's done on court I'll drop them off at their house.
Ok, back to where I was. After spending time at Hunstville, I came back on Wednesday to my friend's ball hockey game, got a drink, and head back home. I got ready for bed and I remembered, "OOOH STUPID MEE, I'm babysitting tomorrow morning." In the morning I got myself ready. When finished my shower I was going to call this woman to see if she was ready for me to pick them up. As I go and grab the phone it rings. "Hello?" I answered. I was kind of thrown off since it was still early for somebody to call. "Nora, get somebody to be with you right now." I was half dressed. Nervous I went downstairs, there was somebody with me. "Ok, what's up?" The voice on the other end was shaky, it seemed like it was crying and barely finishing a sentence. "Nora, this woman(this woman I was suppose to pick up) killed her daughters yesterday." My friend on the other end told me this. WHAT THE FU*K. I couldn't believe it I was in shock. I need to get this out of me cause I still can't believe it, I was suppose to pick her up today. On Tuesday night (if I wouldn't have cancelled babysitting) I could have made a difference in her decision. She called 911 on Wednesday morning saying that her daughters were dead. Could I have changed what happen? I don't know what to say.
